When I die...

Hari ini silaturahmi keluarga besar dari mulai buyut ke bawah, panitia yg kebagian tugas ngaji pas pembukaan ga hadir tanpa berita. Dan entah siapa seenak jidat nyuruh aku yg ngaji. Aku nolak krn surat yg hafal cuma surat2 pendek tp ga ada yg peduli. Syukur ada Qur'an. Itupun udh lama ga disentuhh.. Gosh! Aku pilih surat Luqman, sekeingetnya. Sebenernya ga sepanik itu jg cuma malu aja sm Allah masa ngaji kalo pas disuruh. Syukur lancar, kalo balelol.. hhh.. di depan org banyak gt. Dicabut nyawa pun kurang lebih seperti itu, u cud never say no. Semoga ayat2 yg tertanam dlm diri mampu didawamkan saat sakaratul maut tiba... Semoga lidah ini mampu menjawab setiap pertanyaan malaikat Munkar-Nakir nanti, AMIN.

Another Confession

Kisah reuni SD

"Eh, gw dulu suka sm lo cit.."

"Hah? Masa? heu3.. Prasaan dulu aku mah jutek."

"Dulu tuh banyak yg suka sm lo cit.."

"Ah masa sih? (ga mau tau haha)"

Emg dasar si citra mah tiis, budak leutik, menganggap smua org teman pdhl ga smua org bermaksud 'hanya' sbg teman. Dulu tau beberapa yg emg iya suka krn mereka bilang, meskipun 'naon sih?' oge haha dan ternyata yg terselubung itu entah knp membuatku merasa tertipu, kirain tulus temenan. Dan yg lbh menyakitkan, aku yg bgtu lucuw haha dan polos merasa dikhianati oleh beberapa teman perempuan yg pake nama aku pas lg deketin kecengannya, dan aku pernah dijauhin krn pacarnya ngaku suka sm citra. Garila! Jgn salahin akyu kl dari dulu emg picky hehe tp temenan mah sm siapa aja, jgn sampe nanti aku udh punya anak ada yg baru berani ngaku heu3 paling bwt jd bahan lucu2an, aya2 wae lah... Intinya yes aku tdk sepeka itu jika mnyangkut feeling org lain yg bukan tanggung jwb aku, so if u love me won't u lemme know?

Ada jg yg lgsg ngajak nikah, eitss.. berani2! Haha.. usaha mah harus jln terus, tp perempuan manapun pada dasarnya hanya menunggu momentnya aja, setelah liat seberapa keras usahanya. Jd berdoalah agar Allah membukakan hatinya... Mun pareng tangtu ngajadi. Jodoh, maut, moal pahili!

Simply Glad

Puasa kali ini entah knp terasa berlalu bgitu saja. Mungkin kurang ikhtiar dlm rangka mendekatiNya. Ramadhan buat saya merupakan waktu untuk refleksi diri. Mulai dari yg umum, reuni.. Teman2 jd parameter kita udh sampe mana. Gerak saya mungkin cukup lamban. Tp saya percaya bakal ada org yg ternyata memang satu ritme.

Tulisan ini bukan tumpahan penyesalan, melainkan penyambung suara hati menyikapi berbagai kejadian yg tlah berlalu. Apapun itu, apapun kesalahan sikap saya, apapun keputusan yg tampak ga msk akal pada saat itu, saya yakin krn memang blm waktunya. Saya ikut seneng liat semua yg berlalu melewati dan skrg terlihat lbh baik. Tanpa saya mereka jd lbh baik, saya ikhlas. Saya pun bukan sengaja mengacuhkan, bukan. Tp saya percaya pada akhirnya kita semua akan menemukan kebahagiaan masing2.

Saya sayang sm semuanya. Sayang sekali. Ingin yg terbaik untuk semua. Meskipun saya ga banyak cerita bahkan ke sahabat2 baik, dengerin cerita2 mereka saya udh cukup merasa utuh. Smg Allah selalu melindungi kita semua, amin. Pls never stop giving me chances.. I always thirst for Your love.

Indahnya Kebersamaan

Iklan susu Bendera

Selesai sahur Ade jatuh tersandung

Ade: Adu duhh...

Abang: Udh, udh.. nanti kl nangis batal lho

Ade dan Abang bersepeda

Ade: lalala...

Abang: Tutup muluut.. makan angin batal

Ade masuk kolam renang

Ade: (blurp)

Abang: Kentut?! bataal...

Waktu berbuka, Ade bawa segelas susu untuk Abang

Ade: Buat abang biar bs terus ngajarin ade

Suara Ibu dari kejauhan: Tapi ngajarinnya yg bener yaa

Hahaha so cuutte...

he's just not that into you – Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo

Men are not complicated, although they'd like u to think they are. When u feel the need to start "figuring him out", pls consider the glorious thought that he might just not be that into u. And then free urself to go find the one that is. U're worth it.

He's just not that into u if he's not asking u out.
An excuse is a polite rejection, men are not afraid of "ruining the friendship."

He's just not that into u if he's not calling u.
They say things they don't mean, they make promises they don't keep. They meant it when they actually do what they said they were going to do. That's the very first brick in the house he is building of love and trust. Be with a man who's at least as good as his word. If he's not calling u, it's because u're not on his mind. If he's choosing not to make a simple effort that would put u at ease and bring harmony to a recurring fight, then he doesn't respect ur feelings and needs.

He's just not that into u if he's not dating u. (apply to me: if he's not asking u to marry him)
There's a guy out there who will want to tell everyone that he's ur boyfriend. Quit goofing around and go find him.

He's just not that into u if he's not having sex with u.
Companionship is wonderful, but companionship with sex even better.

He's just not that into u if he's having sex with someone else.
There's no excuse for cheating. Cheating is cheating. It doesn't matter whom it was with or how many times it happened. Cheaters never prosper.

He's just not that into u if he only wants to see u when he's drunk.
It doesn't count unless he says it when he's sober. Bad boys are actually bad.

He's just not that into u if he's doesn't want to marry u.
Love cures commitment-phobia.

He's just not that into u if he's breaking up with u.
U can't talk ur way out of a breakup. It's not up for discussion. A breakup is a definitive action, not a democratic one. There's a guy out there who's going to be really happy if u didn't get back together with ur crappy ex-boyfriend.

He's just not that into u if he's disappeared on u.
There's no mystery-he's gone and he wasn't good enough for u.

He's just not that into u if he's married (and other insane variations of being unavailable).
If u're not able to love freely, it's not really love. Unless he's all yours, he's all hers. There are cool, loving single men in the world. Find one of them to go out with.

He's just not that into u if he's a selfish jerk, a bully, or a really big freak.
If u really love someone, u want to do things to make that person happy. He doesn't have to love ur cd collection. He doesn't have to love ur shoes. But any good, mature guy better make an attempt to love ur friends and family. U deserve to be with someone who is nice to u all the time (u have to be nice to them, too).

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How good it feels to be out of relationship with someone who actually wasn't that into u. Can u feel at least that sense of relief? When u think about it, making all those excuses for someone and trying to "figure someone out" takes up a lot of energy.

By staying with the guy who's not that into u, u are ensuring that u're never going to find one that is. Take the risk of not having someone, possibly feel lonely for a while, but know that u're doing it for a much bigger payoff at the end.

I believe in love the verb, not the noun.

Mahar

Ada yg mau ngasih mahar piano? hoho.. kan buat anak2nya dia jg hehe.. Seperangkat alat sholat mah bisa beli sendiri :p

July 9th

Yesterday was my bday hehe. For the past one year I've learnt lots but I realize those were love. Allah's love.

Actually I'm in Surabaya for a week training. Pas magrib cek wall fb penuh ucapan dari sodara2, temen tk, sahabat kecil, temen gede brg, temen seru2an, kolega2 tercinta lah heu3. Beloved ppl get me contacted by cellphone, those who always there with BIG love. I feel blessed for having them all.

Reviewing myself on that day.. So far, I call myself an organized, logical, detail-oriented person. But no matter how thin u slice it, there are always two sides. Even if I'm a miss independent but for certain ppl I become so spoilt (pamalesan sih sbenernya hehe, lazyyy.. ga mau repot, kata positifnya ya simpel). And I'm still that miss hygienis, can't believe some ppl noticed that heu3. Miss picky is ok I think, cos we should be selective in choosing any options. That's what mind's for, to do the analythical thinking. I always be that lil girl, the characteristics I've brought since I was born. More complex as I go along. That's how we're all linked.

So happy to be me. Thank You Allah...